Long, heartbreaking, but sort of worth it?I normally read for escape, but this wasn’t a rainbows and butterflies place to escape too. That being said, the things these characters endured and suffered left me breathless and I NEEDED to get to the end. It was a page turner because I just had to know. I liked the style of writing, though I do agree this book could have been a little more condensed. Otherwise, these characters have my heart. ***SPOILERS AHEAD*** A few dislikes I had: I hated that Saint felt forced into marrying Jimmy. I hated the disregard Patch had for Saint for nearly the entire book - he came back because of her, and yet despite his gratitude left her in the dust so to speak (while continuing to use her as a resource and her voicemail as an emotional dumping ground). Her unwavering devotion and love for him was never returned equally, though he very clearly loved her as a close friend. His connection with Misty left me upset and nauseous. Like Saint said she could have anyone, why him? Her death brought more despair to an already upsetting tale. His obsession with Grace also left me feeling unsteady but I could at least understand his need to find her as she helped him survive. I understand there were uplifting parts - the art, the missing girls, the connections made - and yet I still found so much of this story hard to swallow. Why am I still giving this 4 stars? I guess because the plot was so harrowing, gripping, and I couldn’t put it down (devouring it in 2 days). Best read of the year? No. But definitely a riveting story to take in.24